And is this what happens? After breaking up with the one you thought was "the one"? I wanted to be with you, so badly. I wanted you to hold me, so tenderly. I wanted to be with you for the rest of my life. And you told me that you wanted the same things. But you go and change your mind? And I waste months and months, trying to change your mind. Was it fair to me? Did I waste my time on you? Did I waste my love on you? I want to say that I didn't. I want to say that it was great. I want to say that I loved every moment of being with you. Lies. I didn't. A lot of times I just wish you would be someone else. Something else. You couldn't give me what I needed. But I have to do this. I have to be strong. I have to be alone. I have to be beautiful. I want you to look at me and adore me. Do you adore me? I don't think you adore me. I don't think you could give me enough...I can give myself enough. I'm breaking the chains, I don't need you anymore.
and not to say that you didn't mean anything to me.
You definitely meant a lot to me. And you are an amazing human being. I think that it's just time for me to step out into the light and take charge of my life, instead of depending on you for everything.
I know the meaning of fear...
But it will be conquered.